Pain

Emotionally it hurts. I don't know how to even explain how I feel. I am saddened because I am starting to see clearly that I don't really matter. He is my best friend and I guess it is not fair for me to want to know how he is every minute, for me to want to connect with him. For me to want to see him. I miss him, it has been days since I have talked to him and it hurts. Why does it hurt